panjang

"my husband wants to talk to you. would you?"

that's like a nightmare come true alright. the day that i hope will never happen, is now here. my stepdad is back in the picture (after about 7 years)!

i knew this was coming the day mom offered (and insisted) me to have that Apt. and for that many times, i politely declined. and for that many times too, i think i upset mom. she feels insulted that im not accepting her offer. its not that i dont want to, its because of things like these lah.

now kononnya, he wants to liase with me directly to renovate the Apt and what nots. mom added "he just wants the past behind". yeah, HIS past maybe. id rather live in an old shack than having to deal with him again.

cant that old man just leave me alone already. seriously. sigh. so now, there's gonna be another streak of commotion in trying to talk to mom without insulting her. i hate being put in catch 22.

that's why life was much easier when i was overseas, alone. with no money, living in a place that looked like it was going to be torn or burnt down anytime. but at least, no one would disturb me, look or know of my living condition and definitely not able to complain anything as that was my own money, and that was all i could afford.

oh si stepdad ni, the family (without my family's knowledge) calls him panjang. dada aptly suggested so :) i have a cool grandfather, yes.

*i look forward to today's evening run.