happy merdeka!

am extremely glad i went out last nite with the oreos.
firstly, to make up for the previous night i bailed out.
secondly, my brain just couldnt take it any longer for the day.

started at 10pm at starbucks.
11pm moved over to OTK because nizam was hungry.
by 1am we decided to go over to AC.
because timmy was there and marianne had to see him.

and my my were we shocked!
sal was theeeere.
seriously what are the chances.
dude, arent you supposed to be in GC?

next oreo dinner: tuesday! :)

redha?

so tell me again, what is this concept all about?
im confused.

maybe sebab brain-drained.
finished 3 office reports and uni journal reviews and a somewhat weekly virtual colloquium with a group of people twice my age. now about to start on another round. still deciding whether to go for work or uni materials.

or just fuck it and sleep.

***
i just realised why im working myself till i drop - literally! its you - yang arif.

of NDA and magnetic pot

you are so god damned intriguing i swear!
i can definitely relate to Apai in that sense.

and this 6-months thingy.
i've a 150% feeling that im bound to be tested - on a mega scale.
rather nervous. but im sure you'll be there to guide me.

definitely more than meets the eye.
i look forward to you and your tests.
and definitely looking forward to next tuesday morning..

pricing tool

at 630am! man am i proud of myself.
kalau boleh, nak buat bid review for all 4 pricing now.
gonna wrap this up for the settlers now.
and will start to look at the telco's issues in a bit and off to the meeting.

for once - i concur with your decision making.
bringing in the AD was/is THE right decision.

doing the arithmetic, drawing the timeline

o-kay! today's news was even more shocking.
so my PIC and i will have to draw up a timeline tmr to figure you out.
you give me new things to think of you every single day i drive home.

work is on the upward trend, increasing at an increasing rate.
so there's 3 projects concurrently. health, finance, and telco. nice.
especially being the bidan terjun for the telco one tmr morning.

oh yes, today was also hectic with engagement updates with the PM and engagement reviews with the councilor. sumpah stress okay.

and buka puasa in the car is a norm now.
and then cont work after prayers - paling normal skali.
speaking of which, i'd better get on to it now.

looking forward to you tomorrow :)
the whooooole freakin day + buka puasa with apai skali and the gang at the oh-so-yummy.

a string of surprises, yet again

yours truly will be away for a good 6 months as of 1st september.

you know when you say you never wanna do something.
that will be THE particular thing that you'll end up doing.
but it's all good. because you know best. i believe so.

***
it was indeed an awesome-er tuesday.
i had a good time with you.
and the new proposals and exposure.
thank you, both.

and im learning to get to know you better.
shocking. but.. better..
i dont know what else is in store for me
but am enjoying your string of surprises.

back to work now.

prettiest friend

hello, awesome monday!

i find you utterly intriguing.
and absolutely entertaining!

you make mondays feel like fridays,
ah, the joy of working with you :)

but darling please do us all a favour, get enough sleep
before you come in tomorrow and have a proper sahur
we dont want a repeat of today's, yes?
we nearly had crams from holding back our laughter in today's meeting, thanks to you.

btw, i just loved our exchange of sms-es in the settlers meeting :P
and i think that you're amusing when grumpy.
i guess right this point, just anything you do makes me smile.

see you in a bit awesome-er tuesday ;)

DKDC

thanks batak. you're the best :)

torn between

the ex. and the ex's ex!
spell me loyalty, please?
but i adore them both..

every thing happens for a reason,
remind yourself that.

you wouldn't just waltz in for nothing.
right?

1st ramadhan

fasting and berbuka in kl after some 4 years
and cumulatively with the whole family after 7 years?

man, that's a long while.
and into the mosque for terawih too.
berat nak pergi,
but once there, berat nak balik.
that peaceful feeling. i miss.

i wish im also with you, in times like this.
it'll just have to wait a few more weeks.

and speaking to you this evening was nice. it's been awhile since i actually felt happy after we got off the phone. you sounded good, like your voice always do. but i just felt so much love :)

let's hope our prayers are answered in this blessed month.
goodnight. wishing myself luck with the khatam Quran process.

wrap up

the 3 day-marathon ended today.
my heart goes out to the girls.
appreciate your efforts, patience and trust.
one for being my sidekick all these while.
the other for being irreplaceable.
and to the PM for being just who you are.

'cept for the EC who couldn't make it.
oh well, yes yes i get your message, god.
i kinda knew it already too.

goodnight, yours truly needs to recharge.
oh ya, selamat berpuasa!

theory of scarcity?

haiih.. things have not changed much i see.
well, im off to more meaningful things now.

fantastic how work can make me ecstatic :)

see you soon, weips

we had our 4th lunch together.
and you're a fan of laksa johor :)

oh ya, thanks for today. for championing our efforts - the whole resource-squabble process and for the remote-working arrangements. lepas tu buat muka kesian, complete with the tone and look, nak tau where we're parking ourselves in the next 3 days dan nak ikut. how can i say no to you?

now that you know, i look forward to friday!

if you're happy and you know it

CLAP YOUR HANDS!

just got news.
and horaaayy.
i'll hv to return to home-base tmr!
aaahh gila babi stokedddd.

dan dan tu terus text you.
shall see you tmr morning.
catch-up session! omg i need my laughing dose, i swear.

and then i hope you're coming in too :)

*clap* *clap*

ahlan wa sahlan!

happy pill's hooome :D
im sooo-o-o-oww elated.
especially when he told me "your brother is looking for you".
since yes - thanks to him jugaklah im not in the office today!
dont even know why but you have this effect on me.

itupun catch up over the net saja.
i swear i feel like squeezing the life out of you
everytime you return from that long trip. haha.

aah. but gotta wait another one looong week before i can see you in person. nak balik kampung lah pulak. sedih sikit. but today's joy overcomes that feeling, for now :)

***
okay i gotta get back to my excel files yang dah bagai nak beranak those numbers. i wonder, what you're wearing today.. im missing your presence and laughter.

o&g: 12 mo ext.

according to last friday's conv + email,
i'll be in their system for 2 years!! masyaallah.

im not sure if they are crazy for the offer (again)
or i am? for turning them down for the nth time.

unless things between the AD and i gets ugly,
pretty much nothing can buy me at this point.

music-retail-food therapy

in that order :)

rashdan harith.
m.nasir's sleeping mantra.
andrew garcia.
keri hilson.

and i wont hv to worry abt baju kurungs for a while!
twas one hell of a bargaining process. tapi puas hati :)

lepas tu indulge in ice cream. ALL THESE, thanks to b.
orang lain yg nak retail therapy, org lain yang broke.
hahaha. yes, the broke part came from attending to my baby earlier in the morning.

so..
here's the dilemma tmr.
im getting full-fledge wfh.
in fact - an order from the PM.
but..
i dont want to!
cause i wont be able to see you.
dah la tu, i'll be based offsite the entire week.
friday baru boleh jumpa.
2 hari ni pun dah bagai nak gila.
now, add another 4 more days?

:(

what have you done to me, _ _ _ _ _ _?

oh, girl!

oh, boy!

you are sinfully attractive.
dangerously inviting.
what a beautiful living thing.

funny. witty. and of character.
your intelligence defines sexy.
your persona wins me.
your hello had me.
your smile weakens me.
your grace melts me.
your eyes locks me into you.
your presence blows me away.

i wish i could tell you all this.
without you running away.
maybe someday,
maybe someway.

shhh..

our secrets are ours to keep;
those that the mind can't comprehend.

the blower's daughter

they wouldn't understand
you wouldn't comprehend
even i surprised myself

and you now know a little more.
all because, he's in the hospital.
and i know i shouldn't have.

but they say, life is too short
to let these go unnoticed?

signed. sealed. delivered.

spent the whole day from 9-9 with you today.
i've not been this married to my job in a while.
nearly 6 months maybe?
i can so foresee, gone are the days of WFHs :)

twas a generally beautiful day, factoring in lunch and all.
but started feeling sad towards the end of the day.
i guess we were in denial while drowning our thoughts in work.
i hate goodbyes. and bidding you farewell was surprisingly tougher than i imagined.

you've touched the hearts of many,
in the seriously short time span we've spent.
well, i wish you well.
and hope we'll cross path, some day.
i'll miss you.

***
i so have to practise social distancing.
and emotional detachment.

hunch.com

with work matters,
you hv the extra sense too!
you've earned the + point.
im liking you even more :)

but.. that also means..
you can sense that.
shit. this can go both ways.

***
happy 25th, mr. pilot.

knock knock wonderment

hello, you :)
and how may i be of assistance?

***
something feels wrong.
hands trembling.
joints are aching - bad.

work ittt

it's been awhile since i've been THIS excited for mondays :)

biology

stumbled upon panjang's kids' family photo.

my heart sank.
i saw their mom for the first time, in 20 years.
i saw haikal after 20 years.

what have you done?
to your family?
to mine?

sigh..

working weekend

rads' exec summ is looking at major overhaul.
5876 requires my attn ASAP before they jump out of their skin.
and then there's the ohsobanyaaak domestic affairs.
oh squeeze some time for you, and them too - weips is back tmr!

wah. tak menang tangan.

but yours truly is feeling very blessed :)
(minus the mother-daughter bit. but yes)

ai-sey!

(lunch #2)

please don't play with your hair
while you're talking to me.
you take my concentration away.

oh god, you're hot.

***
happy birthday mey! i love you :)

anni.

just realised.
it's been a month!
alhamdulillah :)

***
i see that you're going through the same motions?
hahaha.

stomach-headache

1. ma's upset with me thanks to panjang. that man - i wish you'd do something about him already.

2. been informed that, apai and zee has tendered too. hmm..

3. the family has been asking about you. you're busy, i said.

4. it 430am. feverish. headache. and trying hard not to throw up. doesnt help that the house is under quarantine. sigh.

the x-factor

(lunch #1)

i like you. so far.
that's before we screw each other over the pipeline.
hope not!

you. are dangerously attractive.
and complicated.

the return

is absolutely HOT.

intelligence is sexy. and suave is attractive.

although i should remind myself that

you have not really talked about any work related matters!

in fact, we've only exchanged names.
you, my friend. is what i call trouble with a capital T.

sink-in(g)

i take it back.
now THE most precious one has left.

shit man.

oh well, bye-bye doc.

***
happy birthday batak!
happy pill's so far in mkec.
balik lah cepat please.
by the time you're back,
you may no longer recognise the front door,
nor the people.

stuck on replay

had a super splendid weekend with loved ones,
and feeling absolutely over the moon right this moment.

thanks b, oreos, clique, and girls.

i love you!

bliss :)

perm

on the same day:

the resignation. that threw me off completely.
the whole day was - yeahyouknowhowitwas.
then in the evening,
(which i JUST found out 'cause i was too bumped to even check the webmail)
came the new offer letter.

honestly honestly do not know how to react.
although, alhamdulillah would be the most appropriate action now.

oh, you are so full of surprises.
when i didn't even have time to rationalise the morning event,
you keep 'em coming :)

thank you. so much.

the establishment

just got back from my caffeine therapy.
thank you :)

***
we had an impromptu plan earlier in the day.
i was having a terrible day with the resignation and our crazy client.
you knew. you said alright, but wanted it to be at yours.
i said to have it at mine.
you canceled.
i was fine with it (much to my expectation). but i just kept silent.
later in the night, you called! (shock #1)
said you decided to meet some friends, and to meet me after.
i said alright. having in mind, you're gonna call it off later.
well at least i wanted to.
an hour later, you texted that you're on the way! (shock #2)
fuck. swift change. another call came in. you're at my door.

***
keep up with these (pleasant) surprises,
and i'll very soon start hvg heart attacks.

OH yeah! happy birthday azreen.
(bila lah makcik ni nak balik?)